Empty =(

My brain is empty now.

This type of feeling appear these few days.

What's going on? huh?

I don't know at all, I have no idea.

Well, exam is coming soon.

will be start from 9th May.

Oh no! is too bad!

Just backed from library,

went there alone, fortunately,

met SLim and KXin there.

The day before yesterday,

I done a most heartless thing,

I blocked you in my MSN, Skype and facebook.

That's real, we have no feeling to each other anymore.

Before I deleted, I asked myself, will I regret?

and the answer was --- NO !

I was think about you again, but,

I believe, one day I'll forget you completely.

Because I'm Boon Chai. :D ( ss-ing again )

'' J-E-A-L-O-U-S '', this word is in my mind now.

I should tell you yesterday, but I'm don't dare.

I'm useless, cowardly, and weak!

I hate myself.

My Singapore trip haven't confirm yet, disappointed. ><

I don’t even know why I bother trying to love and trust people.

I have no real friends.

No exaggeration. None.

Why do I keep opening myself up to get hurt?

‘Cause I’m a fucking idiot, that’s why. Because deep down, I still have hope inside of me. And no matter how bad I’m hurting, there’s always a tiny bit of hope that allows me to keep getting hurt.

I’m so tired of this.

I just want to take my new razors and lay in the bathtub and carve up my wrists until I’m finally
as empty as I feel.

I just want a friend. A real one. One that won’t leave me or hurt me.

Until then, I’ll stay friends with my razor blades.

I’m sorry.